Friday, October 31, 2008

Swirly Whirly Brain

Overall, I am relieved to know that I'm not going to be pregnant another 2 weeks and that Ben will be here sooner rather than later. But, I am starting to get a little anxious and the questions are starting to race in my head.

How much will contractions hurt? How long will I have to labor? Am I going to be a whiny wimp or screamy bitch? Will I pass out at my fear of the epidural needle? Will he come out? Will he be healthy and perfect and adorable? What if I have to get a c-section? C-sections freak me out! Will James pass out? OMG I'm bringing home a baby this week - are we ready?! Seriously, do we have everything we need? What if my milk doesn't come in? Similac or Enfamil? How much bigger will my boobs get when the milk does come in? Where am I going to find a bra if they get even bigger? How long will it take to get into a routine of some sort? How long will it take to decipher his cries? Am I spoiling him if I pick him up every time he cries? Will I sleep at all in the next few weeks? How much sleep do I really need to function? How long will it take to lose this baby weight? Will I be my pre-pregnancy size ever again? Will I ever want to have sex again?

Thank god for benadryl! No, I'm not doping myself to sleep! I have a legitimate reason. I have prurigo of pregnancy on my legs, arms and hands...and it is itching me like crazy! I want to literally peel my skin off! The doc says it should clear up after the baby is born...fingers crossed!


amanda said...

well, clearly I don't know much about this subject...but, I hear it comes naturally! Just don't second-guess yourself-you'll be great! And, when all else fails-mom will always be glad to help! (and....when you need sleep-I'll come watch little-ok big-ben!!....all but the breast feeding! You're on your own there, sistah)!!

Beckers said...

I think it's all written into your DNA, sweetie. You're gonna be great. :)

Breezy said...

The only thing I can tell you positively is that HE WILL COME OUT...oh yeah, one more positive thing-you're gonna figure all those answers out (sooner or later).